Advice, love, Relationships

Friend Zoned?

Putting your heart out there is not the easiest thing to do. It’s like throwing your fishing rod out into still waters waiting for expecting fish to catch your line. When you find that one person that makes your heart stutter and your arm pits sweaty, not knowing whether or not they like you back is a gut wrenching feeling. Your best friend in the entire world, the one person you want to go to when the world kicks you down more and more each day–how can you not fall in love with that?

I know when i first moved here in Kentucky, i made two friends my first day of school. One being a girl–Maddie– and the other a guy–Brandon. We became really close friends to the point that we could tell each other anything and everything and we did. He shared with me the deepest parts of his life and i was pretty flattered that he had trusted me that much. I knew he liked me. Before he even said anything about it, i knew he had some feelings towards me.

I could have cut it off as soon as i saw it, but for some reason i didn’t. That moment right there was when he was officially friend zoned. I remember this one guy i had a crush on asking me if Brandon and i were a thing and i was honestly shocked that he would assume that, but thinking back on it, i can see now why he would think that.

We were always hanging out, hugging, and his flirting was pretty much obvious to everyone even the martians above. First it was little compliments here or there and then he progressed with touching–placing a hand on my thigh or grabbing my wrist. One day he literally grabbed my arm and pulled me down onto his lap. Then there was another time when he was sitting on my lap.

There are many many instances where a girl or guy has no idea that their best friend has a crush or is in love with them. Then there are people who know and just let it go on and on, which was a shitty thing for me to do, but i honestly didn’t know what to do at the time. It was honestly the first time it ever happened to me and it’s usually the other way around.

In my opinion there is really no way out of the friend zone, unless you are in the following circumstance. Guys lets say you are really in love with this girl and you just feel like she see’s you as nothing more than a brother, and girls let say you are super into this guy who you think only see’s you as his bff.  I think the key word in this scenario is “think”.  You think that this is this and that is that, but you never actually asked.

Those instances right there are the exception. She has feelings for him, he has feelings for her, but they are to scared to say anything to one another, because of the risk of ruining the friendship if the other doesn’t feel the same way. BUT THEY DO!!! I guess believing that your friendship is strong enough to withstand anything is the most important thing when pursuing something more.

A good thing to remember is to not let the feelings of another person crush you. If he or she doesn’t like you, its not their fault and you cant blame them for how they feel. Just move on to the next and be their for your friend like you’ve always been.

Advice, Beauty

How to be pretty 101

First let me start off by saying that the title of this post is absolutely stupid. Yeah i said it…stupid. If you actually thought i could teach you how to be pretty or give you some sort of tutorial on beauty, you are sadly mistaken.

When people try this hard to be pretty, it makes you stop and think, are they ugly? Is there even such a thing as being “ugly”? What if i told you i didn’t find Channing Tatum, Rihanna, or Zayne Malik attractive? You’d think i was mad. Well sorry to break it to you, but i don’t. I think they are ugly, but are they really?

I think beauty is all about preferences. What i find beautiful may be different from what my friends find beautiful. Well i know its a lot different because of their millions of judgmental comments on the type of guys i go for. I like what i like and i cant change that.

The point of me saying this is because of the multitude of girls out there going around questioning whether they are pretty or not. One girl asked “how do i know if my boyfriend is really attracted to me?”. I scrunched my eyebrows at that question because it truly confused me. The answer i gave her–now that i look back on it–was sort of mean but true. I said “Because he’s with you. No one dates people they think are ugly; they say they would but they wouldn’t. So he finds something attractive about your appearance, even if you are ugly.” I have no idea why i said that, but oddly enough my advice helped her.

I’m not saying people don’t look at the deeper parts of another person, because a lot of people do. On the other hand, you cant see what’s on the inside from a first glance. Most people have to find that other person somewhat attractive to go and see whats inside.

My preference as a black female is more on the caucasian side, so black males aren’t usually my type. When it comes to black males, there are a handful of them i like and will give my attention to. If you don’t want to admit that you do this, then you don’t have to, but subconsciously everyone does it.

You cant let someone else’s preference get you thinking that you aren’t beautiful though. Girls–and guys– think down on themselves because they don’t look like “this girl” or “that guy”. To be frank with you, that girl you admire so much, probably doesn’t even really look the way she does–on social media– in real life.

Love you for the way you are. Trust me other people love it too. Don’t try to be something you’re not. You aren’t ugly and don’t try so hard to be pretty either, just be you. You are beautiful just the way you are.